Year end soon

Wether we want it, will it or not, time always pass us by so quickly. I have passed my 3 year mark in Lion City last October. As I walked down the streets back to my HDB, the Christmas deco was up. Hopefully not so Indian purple this year. Normally I would not admire the deco that much as I was always rushing to somewhere. But this year I got a bum ankle last 2 weeks and it made me slow down. And as I walked under the lights and deco I can't help but compare it to the mamak stall back home. They really look quite like some mamak stall deco - the running lights. Quite tacky but still some effort to bring the Christmas cheer to our hub. Perhaps I should admire it more as it could be my last Christmas here. Life is short and we might very well not be here anytime.

It has also been very long since I last see the majestic mountain range on my way home from KL. My humble hometown is surrounded by the Titiwangsa mountain range that starts from north and tapers to the south. As one travels north via the NS Highway you will start to catch a glimpse of the mountain range once you cross the Selangor border. It is modest range and there are no snow caps like Alps or Himalaya but home feels nearer as the mountain range grow taller. Sometimes when we travel very early, we will catch wisps of morning fog. It gives the mountain range a mystical feeling. My youngest sister always like to roll down the mirror and attempt to catch the fog with her hands. I wonder how many more times I get to see the beautiful mountain range.

When I was young, very rebellious and foolish (aren't we all) I always tell my best friend I can't wait to leave home. But now that I am away, I always wonder when I can come home. I want to eat my mum's food, hang out with Rain, bicker with my sisters, nag by my mum, watch astro, accumulate junk, keep a dog and many more. I have left home for 14 years. Perhaps I can only come back at the end of my life journey.

It has been a melancholic day for me. I just get to know a very good friend of mine, in fact my first colleague in my first job is fighting mouth cancer. Prognosis seems bad. I wonder why this happen to a her who has faced so many hardships in life. Suck but reality is as reality was. Life is really shorter than you think and it make me think of things that I take for granted and things that I don't know I yearn.